Looking for L-O-V-E

Sometimes, I like to think I believe this.

Sometimes, I know I cant. I cant believe that I am weird, amazing, and beautiful all at once. Weird: yes. Amazing: not at all. Beautiful: only if I have on a lot of mascara and don't look in the mirror too long.

That part, I cant believe.

The rest I can.

Ive been looking for true love ever since I was like, 5 and saw The Beauty and the Beast the first time. Ive been looking for that head over heels weak in the knees makes your heart burst from pure passion L-O-V-E. Obviously, I haven't found it yet, other wise I wouldn't be posting this. I know that I'm only 17 and that its most likely going to be a looooong time before I find my soul mate, the one who I'm meant to spend my life with. But its hard to not get impatient. See, I'm not the type of girl to date around and "have fun" with a bunch of guys like young girls are supposed to do. I don't feel like that would make me happy. So I'm waiting. I'm waiting for the day when I finally find a guy who I can get to know well enough to love and spend the rest of my life with. Honestly, I'm just waiting for a guy to hold me and tell me I'm beautiful and hold my hand when I feel like falling apart. I just hope I don't have to wait too long.