Cool Kids Club

You know what?

I'm not. I never have been. Well, there was this brief period in 4th grade when I was considered 'cool' and 'popular'. That didn't last long though, because I invited everyone else in the 4th grade into the Cool Kids Club with me, and that's just not how the Cool Kids Club works. Not everyone
is allowed membership. Which is why I was quickly booted out and I haven't been invited back since.
I'm not going to lie. Sometimes I wish another invitation would be extended to me and Id be able to reclaim my spot as a cool kid. I'm in high school, and that's just the way it is. As much as I love being considered one of the coolest misfits in the social jungle at school, sometimes I just want to be....cool. Not a cool misfit, just cool. I want to be part of the group who everyone watches walk by with envy and longing. I want to be part of the group who goes to all of the crazy parties and has the pictures on facebook to document it. I want to be part of the group who is practically begged by teachers to speak in class when their not supposed to, and then not get reprimanded for it. I want to be part of the group that is the group.
I hate to break it to myself, but that will never happen. I'll never be invited back into the Cool Kids Group. My name was practically burned off the list of possible candidates when I started reading nonstop (even during pep rallies, oh the horror) and hanging out with the kids who sat in the corner of the courtyard at lunch and discussed politics and religion. Which sucks a little bit. I'll never be looked at with envy and if I talk when I'm not supposed to in class I'll get myself a healthy dose of detention. I'll remain just a lowly cool misfit until I die.
I think I can deal with that. In fact, I know I can. Because honestly, how fun is it being a cool kid anyways? In my experience, its not very fun, seeing as they don't allow everyone in. I want to be part of a group that has no boundaries as to who can join. I think that group is the best one to be in. The most unlikely people can end up being the most popular and cool people in your life. And if being in the Cool Kids Club means I wont be able to befriend every person who comes along and does something as simple as smile at me, then I guess I most definitely don't want to be part of that club. I'm hope they had fun cutting up my membership card, because that's the best thing they've ever done.